thanks rohag for your question...you are very gentle..
I was traumatized by that loss...so I guess ptsd..
then I did well for several years and then came THE PANIC ATTACK...
again that freaked me out...again I suppose ptsd...
it took about 7 years before I finally broke so bad that I couldnt
work at all for 4 years....

psychiatry is so important but it has gone so wrong...
money and greed and arrogance has taken over..
I had a very hard time fighting these forces but I did it...
and I am still here...and there is hope for us...

I just heard that scientists have found a new type of neuron in
the human brain....called the rosehip neuron...maybe this will help us..