I get annoyed how most people think the most important thing about people is their job. Or more to the point, that they have a job. It seems to be the main thing people grade other people on. They think that if you are unemployed (like I am) then the only thing you should care about is getting a job. Even though in my case I'm not in the right mental state to work (mostly sleep deprivation caused by noise). I am trying to fix the other things that might have more control over though, but it's taking a while. These things don't just happen overnight. I can't just flick a switch and change.

Apparently I should be spending all of my time and energy on jobsearch. I don't, I spend most of my time on:
1) Things I need to do (eating, housework, bath, sleeping when it's quiet enough at night
2) self help things (trying to work out my problems and how to fix them, writing about things)
3) relaxing so I don't get really stressed like I have in the past, because then I can't do anything

I probably only spend about half an hour a day on jobsearch (less on sundays and bank holidays because there is nothing on the sites then, or very little, and just enough to keep the jobcentre happy). I don't put much effort into it because I know it will be a waste of time (both mine and the employers), nobody wants someone in this state. And I have more important things to do, like trying to get myself into an employable state.

There is really no point in trying to hard to get a job until I've done something and improved, and I feel that is more important, not just for getting a job but everything else too. I have made a lot of improvement over the last few years and now there are still a few things to sort out and I'm working on them, or trying to.

I'm just sick of being brought down by people telling me I should always be jobsearching and "getting a job" instead of whatever I'm doing. They also make it sound so easy like I can just get a job, like its my choice, not that the employer has to choose me for the job.