Too be honest I dont think I have the strength right now to try and override the feelings that take over. It always seems like I HAVE to punish myself, and just exercising ect ect isnt enough, so it always results in self injury.

I had an episode the other night and my arm is in bandages. I had to tell my boyfriend about it the other night and it was so hard, but I felt the need to tell him because it's happened twice since I have been with him and I know that if I didnt he'd start noticing.
He was supportive and asked me today that whenever I felt the urge to do It I should think of him and try to stop it, so thats something brand new I can concentrate on. But at the moment I feel weak and just know that no matter what I do to try and distract myself from it, it will end in punishing myself in some way