awe thanks hon for the kind words. I only speak from the heart. I know how the lost feeling feels. I wanted so badly to exit the world when my granddaughter died. I think that is the hardest thing in the world I have ever had to endure. It took me a very long time to even look at babies her age. still at times I have a hard time with that and next month will be 12 yrs. You will make it thru this hon even though right now that is so hard to see. Hang here with us, lean on us and together we will all make it thru. (((hugs)))