I am on "jobseekers allowance" which gives just enough to eat and pay bills, but they do punish you quite harshly for being unemployed. It's supposed to be temporary, and I was hoping/assuming it would be, but I am constantly rejected from every job apply from. They are actually very fussy from what I have seen. So here I am 13 years later still stuck on it and going nowhere.

In fact the abuse I've gotten from them over those years has probably beaten me down further than I already was. If they actually found out what your problems are and helped you to do something about it I might have become employable by now.

Since I am sleep deprived from the noise upstairs, I look terrible, apparantly sleep deprived people look the same as drug addicts and it's hard to tell. So when I go to an interview, they obviously take one look at me and say "no". Also I talk slow and sometimes forget halfway through a sentence. Its also hard to pay attention and focus when so tired. Nobody wants to employ someone like this (I don't even think I would want to), because it's obvious that I won't be able to do the job properly, any job. Housework is hard enough!

All I want is to be left alone for a few weeks/months, try to get help for my problems (obviously none of that from the job centre). I know I can never fix the sleep deprivation because that's out of my control but other people can function on a less than healthy amount of sleep, so there must be a way. And maybe my other problems are draining me. But I'm always forced to just "get a job" which as I have already proved, is impossible.