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Old Sep 02, 2018, 03:50 PM
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I've been eating about 200-300 calories a day because i have a burning sensation in my stomach that puts me off from eating. (I'm not hungry from it; plus it hurts.) However, I know it's chronic inflammation of my stomach spinchter because I had an endoscopy last year that confirmed the site of the inflammation, so it's nothing new. It's just my stomach acting up.

Idk how much weight I've lost. I think 1.2 lbs... but I was already around 101-102 lb to begin with. I'm not exercising, either, so it's not like I'm exercising AND not eating. It's just me not eating. I don't want to eat.

I have to go back to the GI doctor, but idk if my insurance will cover it. That's the thing. It totally sucks. Best I can do is visit my GP, but I doubt she'll do anything besides tell me to see a GI doctor. *sigh* I feel like I'll be wasting my time.
That is concerning. Even more concerning is that you are bothering to count calories while eating next to nothing. I could be mistaken but didn't you also post somewhere you have an eating disorder (anorexia, it sounds like). Do you think you might be using this as a convenient excuse not to eat? I think you need to see an ED specialist. People don't just say, oh, look, I lost exactly 1.2 lb. in a week, I guess? Know what I mean? Being so exact like that? Your weight is low & bad. You know that, I'm sure. A woman needs to eat around 1500/day if sedentary to MAINTAIN weight. Normal people trying to diet and lose weight eat 1200 cal/day. If you are active, you need to eat somewhere in the area of 2000 cal/day, maybe more. I really, really think you need to see the ED people about the anorexia. I don't think it's GI. I think it's your eating disorder trying to convince you it is GI.

I'm not one to talk. My weight is low too. It's bad actually. I usually tack on a couple of pounds when the pdoc asks about it. For a long time, I maintained at a very low weight a lot of my adulthood without trying. My metabolism was just different after recovery, I ended up with a low set-point weight. I had a normal pregnancy, normal 25 lb. expected weight gain and then couldn't keep weight on while breastfeeding especially as I did self-weaning, and until my daughter was around 2.5 year old, most of her calories came from breastmilk each day. She was very slow to take to foods.

I was doing fine, a low-normal weight for my height until I had all those ulcer issues. Then, after getting home from 6 days in the hospital (treatment of perforated duodenal ulcers is torture, pretty much), I saw I had lost 10 lb., and that got the ED ball rolling again. I have bills, a lot of stress, can't work, can't get benefits due to lack of work history and my husband's teacher income putting us above poverty level. I have been so, so stressed out and anxious, and that has caused me to overexercise a lot. I don't count calories, but I do know I am not eating the diet a long distance runner my age, sex, and height should be eating. So I exercise so much, I can't keep up with the calories, end up with the deficit, weight lost, ED celebrating.

I really, really hope you get some help for the anorexia. I am not one to talk because I really, really need to get some help for the anorexia I have too because it's bad. People are starting to say things, and that is never a good sign.

You need to take care of yourself. You need a pdoc, an eating disorders team/hospital, don't kid yourself about the GI doc.

When I don't want to a food or something, I will tend to make up an excuse about not being able to eat it post ulcer surgery.

But usually, that is all it is - an excuse. Though not greasy fried foods. Have had horrible long bouts of diarrhea after eating those. Which of course for a person with an ED, you weigh less on the scale, losing that water weight.

And though I know what the ED tells me is wrong, I get freaking happy when the number is less than 100 lb. on the scale even though I know my very minimal weight should be 115 lb., maybe 110 lb. if I were on the thinner side. At these weights, losing 5 lb. makes you look like you lost 20 and aged 20 years as well. I'm not sure of your age (though EDs don't discriminate by age as I'm 40, and it's still messing with my head). But I think I'm turning to it because I have so many things in my life beyond my control, and the exercise is the one thing I CAN control.

Please take a good, hard look inward. If the GI doc found something wrong, then go find a dietician or nutritionist who can tell you what foods are least likely to affect your condition. If you can't afford that, I have a feeling if you Google long enough, you can find something like good diets for whatever your condition.

And why would the GI doc not put you on medication? Mine is lecturing me so much, I will probably be on Protonix the rest of my life.
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