Hello skyedonielle: I see this is your first post here on PC. Welcome to PsychCentral! I hope you find PC to be of benefit.

I'm sorry you find yourself to be in this difficult situation. (Perhaps your bf will have a change of heart & come back on his own?) Unfortunately I don't know as there is a lot I can suggest in the way of a solution. The reality here is that you only have control over yourself & what you do. If your bf is determined to end your relationship I, at least, don't know of any way to change his mind. Perhaps other members, here on PC, will have some suggestions.

One thing that does occur to me is that if your bf was so easily moved to end your relationship, perhaps he was not as invested in the relationship to begin with as you are. My wife & I are older people. We've been married for 38 years. And I can tell you it takes an ocean liner's worth of forgiveness & compassion (plus downright stubbornness) to keep a relationship going for that long. Yes, perhaps what you did was silly. Perhaps it was less than thoughtful. I personally don't think it was stupid. And I have to tell you that, were you & your bf to marry & have children, there would be many infinitely more serious challenges the two of you would have to face as the years go by. I know you said you adore this gentleman. But, if he's willing to walk away this easily, perhaps it was for the best.

Here are links to 3 articles, from PsychCentral's archives, on the subject of how to mend a broken heart:

10 Tips to Mend a Broken Heart

12 Ways to Mend a Broken Heart

Help on Healing from Heartbreak

My best wishes to you...