I do see one but I'm not sure how much help it is. She was originally our couple's counselor so she at least knows about my relationship and how that affected me.
Nothing I do is ever enough though. That's always been the problem with everything. I just keep thinking about my ex telling me about jobs he didn't apply for because of the culture. Religious private colleges. So they wouldn't like the fact that we weren't married but even more damning is my sexuality and gender identity. Even if he didn't want to apply because he didn't share the religion, why say that? Why make it a point to mention that me being a freak holds him back? Why say all the right things like "I like you for you" when you really don't? I mean, it's a rhetorical question, but still.
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