I don't need you. I don't need you. I don't need you.

Don't you get it? I can't have one without the other. That's why I'm always holding back a tiny little piece of me. It's like a trust fall and I won't tip over far enough that I can't catch myself if you decide you don't want to be there anymore.
You should be relieved. It means that if/when you decide to get rid of me again you won't have to feel guilty, because I can handle it on my own. Not in a way you'd approve of, of course. But then again it would no longer be your right to say anything about it, now would it?

Sometimes I think that the very fact that you want me to trust you means you don't take what happened in May seriously enough. You already know you can't promise you won't leave again. If you really understood how much May hurt and how much worse it would be a second time, would you be able to abandon me like that again with a clear conscience?
Actually I don't think I want the answer to that question.

You don't get it both ways. If you want to be able to leave guilt-free at any time without warning then you don't get to ask me for that kind of vulnerability.