I went jogging a little this morning, and it started pouring rain, so I had to come back in. Walking or running in hard rain has a tendency to mess up my contact lenses, sometimes make them fall out, other times go into the whites of my eyes, and then I can't see well at all. I'm a -10 in contact lenses in each eye. So no running in the rain for me.

I'm sick of getting rained on while jogging. It helps my stress. It has been very dry here this summer (usually there tend to be showers in the afternoons). Now it is raining day after day after day and more predicted. Ugh.

I'm worried the police will show up to investigate the CPS case. I need to read the booklet ASAP and read more about my rights online. The investigation was opened because of "mental health concern", but I never wrote or did anything to indicate I'd injure my daughter, she is perfectly healthy, if she has any bruising, it's just small stuff such a running into something while playing, nothing major or noticeable at first site except maybe mosquito bites. The CPS worker didn't even tell me what the "mental health concern" in my case is and how it might be harmful to my daughter.

I didn't realize I had the right to an attorney & didn't have to talk at all without a court order, so I admitted to my diagnoses, signed a release for CPS to talk to my pdoc, and now everything I've read online says don't do anything the CPS orders without a lawyer and/or warrant/court order.

I am so nervous about this "psychological assessment" CPS wants me to take. I have read online that they look for all the negatives in the parenting area, not the positives. I've also read they often want you to take a drug test. I don't use illicit drugs, smoke, or drink alcohol, but I have read that several of my prescriptions could show false positives on drug tests.