I’m assuming I should talk to him via phone, rather than text? I feel like I explain things better on paper (or screen, in this case) than in person. In person usually leads to me saying things I don’t mean, or not getting the point I want across. Like I forget to stand up for myself. If I talk on the phone I might be more inclined to “not hurt his feelings” or not directly say what I want (which is some kind of independence).

I feel so stupid. I bought tickets to visit him December of this year. I did I not because I love him, but I felt nervous that if I didn’t do it, it wouldn’t show that I cared enough to fly out and visit him.

I just need to get back in touch with myself. I’m so confused and lost