Dear crying. Are you in the UK?

I've had a look on the Mind website, under I need Help Right Now.

They say if you're having suicidal thoughts, you need to either:

Get your GP to refer you to a Crisis Team.

Go to A&E, and they'll refer you to a Crisis Team.

As you're without a phone, you can now contact NHS 111 online. Here's the link NHS 111 - Error 500 [111.service.nhs.uk]