Ah, Desiree! I read your initial post
here. I wish I were in a position to hasten the correspondence for which you wait, but I am not.
You are most courageous though you suffer greatly. I know, however, great suffering slowly erodes even the greatest courage.
All the posters here have something to offer you. "In the multitude of counsellors, there is safety."
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My dog

mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.