Maybe in an existential crisis, maybe just my depression. Who knows? Do I go in deeper to get out and find peace and resolve it, or do I just engage in activities until I am more present in the world, even though it feels counterintuitive and therefore stop the feeling? Anyone else been here? Hope I am not in to far to get out of it.

Quote I found that helps explain how I feel on this existential journey. Seems a bit dramatic, but felt it was a good description overall

"He enters into a labyrinth, he multiplies a thousandfold the dangers which life brings with it; not the least of which is that no one can see how and where he loses his way, becomes lonely, and is torn piecemeal by some Minotaur of conscience. Assuming such a person perishes, this happens so far from the comprehension of men that they neither feel it nor sympathize:—and he cannot go back any longer! nor can he go back to the pity of men! " Nietzsche