I am having horrible issues of late, unrelated to ED stuff except for the fact that I can hardly go jogging because it keeps raining and raining.

I may or may not have posted about being given a ride to the psych ER last week. If it's not here, it's somewhere in the bipolar section.

Anyway, that has now opened up a CPS case. OMG. I never would mistreat my daughter. I don't have plans to kill myself or overdose or anything to that effect. My daughter is perfectly healthy and fine. I guess at least the CPS worker saw that as at least she didn't remove my daughter from the home. But now I've got to do a psychological assessment for them, God knows what else. Maybe a drug test, but a lot of the meds I take warn they could trigger false positive on drug tests, so that's just great. And I can't just suddenly stop my psych meds.

I am under so much stress and so anxious. My mom was on the phone blaming me for the situation, which honestly, did not help me one iota.

You try to settle down, think "OK, I've got this." I think I posted not long ago about wanting to try a nutritionist or dietician again; if not here than in the bipolar section somewhere. I tent to post more in the bipolar area, it being much more active.

Foodwise, OK today even if lunch was hard because of so much anxiety. Maybe I'll try lying in the bath with lavendar oil or something and then drinking chamomile tea, see if it calms my nerves any. It has been really, really hard not being able to run much at all lately. Stupid rain.