I'm sorry you are feeling miserable & misunderstood. My own experience over the years (& there have been a lot of them) is that the people in your life (family, friends, etc.) just want you to be the person they want you to be... the person who fulfills whatever niche you fit into in their lives. And they don't care what that does to you.

The people in your life don't really care about your problems. They have their own & they don't know what to do about yours. They'll stick with you for a while, depending on how important a person you are to them in their lives. But sooner or later if you don't conform you'll see them drifting further-&-further away. That's the good thing about therapists. Since you pay them for their services they're willing to stick with you... at least until the money runs out. I apologize if that seems harsh. But it has been my experience.