This is a convo me and my therapist had.

Her: I can only imagine how difficult it must be to listen to the possibility of any form of abuse happening to you (especially by your parents). If you can dismiss that possibility you can avoid having to think of that reality. However, it is only through acceptance of our situation/our reality, that we can begin to get to work on the healing process. Your brain reverts to its alarm center as a way of avoiding the reality.

Me: Can you explain this a little?

Her: Not sure what part of this you are referring to but guessing the last. It is only through accepting that we need help that we can begin using and accepting help and begin healing. As example, if I had an anger management problem but denied that I had one, I wouldn’t be able to work on improving it.....why would I? because in my mind I didn’t have s problem.

Does that help?

Me: I am not sure what reality youre talking about.

Her: Whatever the reality may be for you - that something abusive May have happened, that you adopted some unhealthy coping mechanisms, etc...

Me: I dont know my reality. That's my problem.

Her: Yes!

Me: I get the feeling you want me to accept I was sexually abused and are just not saying that.

Her: NO- I'm saying you dont know thats your reality.


Im so confused