T,
Still struggling, still feeling destroyed thinking about what I’ve done to myself and worse, to others.

I never meant it to mean anything or be of any consequence. Adults have intimate relationships all the time. I hoped it would help ‘grow me up.’

I couldn’t see how it would hurt anyone. For a time the relationship helped my self-esteem, depression, loneliness.

I didn’t know I was being careless. I didn’t know.
But I should have known.