fragmented,

Everything you said makes such complete sense... It's like you could practically be describing my life. I know for me I'm sure that therapy has brought out a lot of stuff as well as some other things that have happened in my life lately. I've had many other therapists and this is the first time one of them has known about the switching and actually talked to some of my alters, and that still really freaks me out. I don't know if you've ever been in a hospital or not, but it has been really bad for me, and I will do anything not to be hospitalized again. No one else in my life knows anything about most of this either, and that makes it so hard, doesn't it? When you T is your only support and you only see them once a week and maybe get to talk a few minutes on the phone in-between it's insane, just trying to survive from one visit to the next (at least that is what it feels like right now for me).
I think I'm rambling on sorry. Just one more thing...you mentioned trying to talk to myself while switching. Do you always know when you're going to switch? I think a lot of the time I do, but sometimes I suddenly realize that time has past or that I'm somewhere completely different and i must have switched without knowing it. (If anyone else has some input here please jump in--I'm trying to understand)

thanks and sorry if I went on a bit,
wolfsong