So my mother was very strict white glove cleaner. Everything had to be perfect. We couldn't even have anything on our dresser. We were only allowed a bathe every other day. My mother also made sexual remarks about my body. Two that I remember were 1) you have a fat p*ssy 2) your boobs look like eyes. She also made fun of my Ocd issues. She told me if I ever hurt my sister she would lock me up after I cut. When I was 8 and having sexual behaviors because of whatever (I dont know the cause) she took me to an orphanage said get better or get out. I was only 8 when she did that. She slapped me once. She told my stepdad I wasn't to be liked only my sister was. I was 14 and for 6 years he made my life a living hell. Everything my mother got mad about he go mad about. He also slapped me in the face once. I never knew if my mom was going to hug me or scream at me when I went to her for anything. Did I come from an abusive home? I mean in some ways I feel lucky because what she came from was way worse. Then part of me is like she made my life hell.