Extremely anxious and hurt. Friend was supposed to be on to talk to me before the high, he only just got on within the last half hour and hasn't said anything to me. I did say he didn't have to talk to me if he would be too busy or didn't feel up to it, so it's possible he's using that option. It still hurts. I shouldn't have said that. I guess I need to just bottle everything up and work towards numbness. I'm so tired of feeling like this. I want to feel nothing.