Oh does this ever ring out as true. I have taken this to a well developed art form.

I too have self sabotaged when all was actually good in my life. I pull the plug, so to speak, when I am so fearful of the goodness falling apart, I feel that if it must happen it should be under my control and terms.

However, I mostly sabotage myself in work situations. I perform at a very high level. Unfortunately this comes at the price of unbelievably high anxiety that I cannot maintain the pace or output. In worry that I will make a mistake, make a superior unhappy, or just plain fail, I will then flee the situation before it reaches that point. Usually it is only afterward that I recieved the positive feedback I so needed and desired. Unfortunately that comes far too late and I have moved on to another job only to create the same pattern.

I have sabotaged relationships too. The pattern is the same. I am afraid of my world falling apart so it is best to flee the situation before that happens.