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Originally Posted by rise13eyond
I'm not really sure why I phrased the title as a question...Anyway, so a new alter showed up recently...Actually she showed up a couple months ago for a short time, and at the time We....well mostly just me, was a bit jarred, and not wanting to deal with one more, so I kinda just hoped I was confused or something (I am a professional denier). But she showed up again last night. So I guess I can't keep denying her. But I'm still feeling a bit confused. It's hard getting used to a new one. I have so many questions. Why her? Why now? Along with just general questions about her. None of us can figure out her age for one. She said "everyone wanted a little girl, so that's what they'll get". I'm a bit baffled, although I think I might know what she means it still leaves me with the same questions. So are these feelings normal or am I just weird and don't know how to deal?
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sorry we cant tell you whether these feelings are normal for you or not. only your own treatment providers can tell you what is normal for you and what is not normal for you.
what I can tell you is that for me denial of the disorder and alters was not a normal thing for me. I became DID whether I knew it or not before the age of 5 with the very first alters creation from an extremely traumatic event that my under 5 yr old brain did not have the physical and mental abilities to handle.
I was diagnosed after I became an adult, so everything that was part of my having DID was my normal, so as an adult having alters was my normal.
what else I can tell you is that it was normal for me to have alters that I didnt know about. to me they sometimes seemed new simply because I had limited to no co consciousness with my alters. this didnt mean they just suddenly one day sprang into being. they were there whether I knew about them or not since very early childhood, taking control and doing what I was unable to handle, each time I had my dissociative symptoms. example I could not stand watermellon due to being abused by someone eating watermellon. I would dissociate any time I smelled or was near a watermellon and the alter who's job, purpose, reason for being created when I was 4, would take control and handle that. I didnt know she existed until I was an adult but she was there each and every time through out my childhood doing what was needed with that trigger.
my suggestion is if this continues to bother you contact yours or a mental health treatment provider who can help you to discover what is what with you and this alter.