I ended up calling him yesterday. I tried staying on script but we ended up talking for so long I had some free flow speech.

It ended up not being the end of the world. We're still together. I brought up that I want to have more freedom, travel around, and focus on my career and that it would be hard while in a relationship... and he was taken very aback. He told me that he had sacrificed everything to be with me and that he did it because he thinks I'm worth it. He believes in my dreams, too, but he wants me to consider his goals, which right now are to finish school.

I know that everything he says and does is because he loves me. I'm not sure if he knows what's BEST for me, but I know he takes small and big steps to ensure my safety and success. Little things like making the house cozy before I get home, big things like moving to stay with me...

Right now I'm really conflicted because in the past 24 hours I've felt every emotion from not wanting to be with him, to now, where I'm warmly remembering everything we've been through together. I can tell every day he's getting more mature and better at communicating, which is one of the main things I wanted out of him. I can't tell if I've casted our whole relationship in a negative light, or if it really isn't working.

I guess that's something I'll have to figure out for myself... it's just scary. I'm torn between staying, where I know I'll be taken care of and loved, and leaving, where I'll have all kinds of freedom.