you're right.. you're all right. just feeling so frustrated and sad.

i feel judged and pigeon-holed. There are just certain topics where i know i will get this from her... kind of a i-know-better tone to it.. it grates me... makes me want to yell and tell her she doesn't even know me for god's sake!

but i wont.. she cares and she is a good friend in most ways...

i am getting frustrated with not having friendships which are equal.. both parties as interested and motivated to put something into the friendship. IRL i seem to have friends who get together with me if i ask, but never call me... you know?

thats me of course... how i set up the power dynamic

i only mentioned T because he is SUCH a huge thing for me right now... i wouldn't be here w/o him.. he has been my source of validation while i made decisions i had not made before..

you're right.. i never should have brought it up.. she is not dumb at all, but she wouldn't understand this..

i am so very lonely