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Sep 05, 2018, 10:06 AM

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Originally Posted by Deejay14

If you really think that it will surely change when you have to go through treatment or the pain of not having treatment. My husband has had melanoma and colon cancer. My sister is currently going through treatment for breast cancer. It's hard to be witness to, but much harder to be the one who has to brave the treatment. It's an experience that changes you whether you are the patient or the caregiver. I feel for you that you feel so bad. That is hard to but please try to be more sensitive.

I am dead set on dying, or at least escaping this environment. I have around 10 conditions which affect my everything... I cannot list all the reasons why I want to not live like this (and even die) in this post, but I think it's a blessing for me... please don't be hurt.

I am a brain damage patient but I am treated like a criminal in my home.

I am not ever going to get treated for my melanoma.

In case anyone's interested how it happened, here's it.

Possible trigger:

I took an overdose of betablockers when everyone was asleep, took an overdose of risperidone, cut my left arm with a blade my mother uses to clean dishes with and slept. In the next few days I had horrible encephalities and chicken pox and body pain. Those chickenpox bumps turned into basal skin carcinoma and I have at least three of these bumps black still, which I am hopeful are evolving.

I was born very smart. But due to my infantile trauma, the environment, the abuse, the isolation, the malnutrition, I have become intellectually disabled.