I have been so confused lately. Mainly because I have now got together with this guy for like the fourth time and well it's just confusing. I am wondering if I keep ending it because I am scared or something. I also wonder if it's because I don't believe I deserve respect or love and so then when he shows me that I run. It's almost as if I turn myself from the good things and turn to the bad. The thing is I can't even tell if people are good or bad, I can't tell if a relationship with a person is going to help or hurt me. I don't really know what to do much anymore. I am kind of lost. I mean I do love him and everything that is not the issue. I am just really lost on if he is good. I am wondering if I am just setting myself up because I have had a life of pain and abuse. Plus I was ust assaulted in May and well I was together with this guy before and after the incident. It's just all really confusing, I am hoping that some suggestions may be able to help me.