Second day at my new job. Combo tired and anxious, wanted to fall asleep at my desk. I am making myself do the work as best as possible, though, anyways. I feel so fake acting like I am as happy as possible, while inside crying. Tomorrow I have my appointment with my psychiatrist. I might say okay to the therapy. They will probably recommend DBT. I feel depressed and totally hopeless right now, because I just don't see the point since I doubt I will ever feel much better. Might as well try something, but I kind of don't even care anymore. Sorry to sound like such a downer. Hugs to all.