Today was my last day off (vacation) - and I woke up with a headache. Headache all day, mostly laid around in bed and played on the kindle or watched TV. I feel kind of crappy and depressed. Not looking forward to going back to work tomorrow - there was a ton of drama last week when I left for the holiday, and I hope that the people involved figured it out (a couple of them were using me as a stand-in therapist, which I am really not well-suited for! It was exhausting!)

I wanted to work on eating better (less sugar) today and exercise, but my head still hurts... the thought of trying to exercise doesn't seem like it would make me feel any better... though a nice warm shower before bed might help.

At least there are only 2 days before the weekend.

I'm also in a bit of a panic... I'm going Monday for a brain mapping with a new neurofeedback person that I met this week. I liked her, but I'm freaking out now... mostly I'm worried that the neurofeedback to "relax" parts of my brain will end up flooding me with crappy memories that I've successfully suppressed, making me non-functional

I don't know what else to do though.. I don't want meds, and therapy has not helped at all. This seems like something that could get me to a better place, which would be amazing. But, omg... the anxiety!