I think that's great you got a therapist appointment sooner. You seem like you could really use the support right now and I think it's a good move since you've been struggling. I am also going to take the step I think and find a therapist or get a referral from my pdoc tomorrow. I felt frustrated as well with lack of success with previous times trying therapy, but figure I ought to try again with maybe a different approach like DBT. Panic and anxiety make everything seem harder, and I find it difficult to get things done in these states. Sorry you are experiencing that right now. It is understandable when under so much stress. One step at a time, though, don't forget to breathe, and hopefully you will see your way out of this mess soon. If you can develop coping skills for the future with therapy may help you in the long run. I am sure you know this, but try to do the little things you can for self care like sleep (if you can), maybe read a book, take a hot shower. Hope you get some good rest tonight.