Sunrise,
I think it was after I had mentioned something about ego state when I said something about things only surfacing at 3 AM. It is interesting, when you describe some of the question you T asks. Maybe my T has tested my receptiveness to the ego state therapy in two previous sessions. However, my "what the *&^% are you talking about? I have no idea what I wanted when I was 10!" These responses might have indicated that I was not ready to go there, yet. She probably decided ..Hmmm maybe we should stick with talk therapy for a while longer.

Now that I think about it this is probably another layer of defense. Because that evening outside of therapy, I knew what she was wanting me to do and could access some of these emotions. I can be such an %#@&#! during the session sometimes! That will be my goal for this week's session, stop playing clueless and give my best effort.