But God am I a dumbass. I threw away my old bottles, too, so it's not like I can use those empty bottles!

Now I'm literally hitting myself in the head (in the bathroom where no one can see me) and I want to slam my head against the stall to inflict major pain to punish myself for my f*** up. I also screamed, somewhat quietly, and sat on the floor yanking my hair. But it is only 7:30 and no one gets here until 9:30 or 10.

I don't know how I'm going to get any work done today if I can't concentrate.