I feel for you. I personally couldn't handle this T. I NEED that connection. Thankfully mine gives alot of himself to me in that sense. We've gotten to a place where we accept differences and still are honest about them. It's helped me tons with comfort and trust. I've never been a fan of T's who stay so rigid. Not every client benefits from that. Many "rules" of therapy are assuming that all clients react and respond the same to things so I'm not a fan of most of them.

That being said, I've no good advice to you. You are brave to stick with this T. as I said, I could not. You just have to accept this part of things the best you can. Keep talking about how upsetting and difficult it is for you. Best of luck with things