We are a functioning system: make a check, pay the bills. Beyond that....cuckoo.

I spend my day going about my business doing my job all the while wondering if other people heard me talking to myself, or saw an alter walk like she did before we caught her, guarding at best as much of what comes out of the mouth, Floating in my head in a daze spewing jokes or funnies, or watching my day like at the movies....always ready for damage control.

This is tiresome and takes a lot of energy in trying to appear....without questions....normal. Always on guard for out of characterness. Back tracking here, Bull shitting there, avoid apologizing, playing it off, it’s a job just having a job/career.

We excell at the task....but dealing with human organisims is quite the challenge trying to remember words, appearing confident, cordial, but also tough, edgy.... making all the switching between parts seamless and believable as a singleton.

For as difficult this sounds....we do this without thinking...we just do it, right? I mean it’s like a job of a coordinator/scheduler/manager/stage hand/a conductor.....

A daily job well done when no one suspects, gets mad, eyes you funny, no breakdowns, no fiascos, nothing expensive happened, everyone still smiles around you, not ostracized, accepted, no wish you were dead moments, no regrets, no embarrassments or self butt kickings,...

Hiding being a multiple is of the utmost importance to us....can’t see a life with people knowing.

One day there will be peace, but until then...this the usual.
Yes?

How do you manage living your day...or do you? Suggestions in approaches in getting by?