FML. Nothing is aligning. Everything is going wrong. I feel _SO_ trapped!!!! I am so VERY done, yet cannot escape. I get tempted to write about what all I'm talking about, but too paranoid.

Will probably go straight to bed again. 5 pm, whatever. It's that or a breakdown. On the verge of tears.

I cannot go on like this.

Edited to add... forget verge, deluge.