An update...

The funeral did help... it was beautiful yet very upsetting and hard to say goodbye. I really didn't want to leave the funeral home and leave her there sounds silly I know...

I have to go clean out her house and things in a few days.. very worried how this will effect me.

I keep going through different types of grieving I think.. i've had denial, crying, anger... its all mixed in at times...

I do hope with time it does get better