It’s like when I’m on a shopping binge there is no awareness of the money flying out the window. I know but somehow I don’t care. It’s not until I’m stable and reality sets in. Knowing this is a common feature of mania/ hypo mania does not stop it from happening.

It was Lancôme and MAC and Lush makeup and Michale Kors and Kate Spade perfume... all gone now! Nice on the Anne Klein shoes. Once I stole 10 pairs of leather gloves from the dept. store I worked in when I was 19. I never got caught but every time I opened my drawer and saw them I felt guilty and never wore them. I threw them out after a nightmare. When I got sober the first time my sponsor made me send a big fat check to that store. Anonymous of course.