I don't know if he can tell if there is an alter out or not. I don't know what to do. Yes this is the same guy I have been with well about 4 times now. Feb-March last year, August last year, October last year and January this year and now again, Guess that's 5 times. But see the last time he thought I was just taking a break because I just all of a sudden quit talking to him. I think it was because some of the people in my life were telling me it was not a good thing. I don't know why I go back, I think I love him and that's why. But I don't know. I guess thinking about it there are a few warning signs but I really am not sure if they are as bad as I think they are. I do not have a good sense of when things are bad. At least this time I was able to tell him I didn't want to get pregnant after last time I was with him he wanted me to be. But I don't know. One thing that weighs on my mind is sometimes it can be challenging talking to him. Like our intelligence levels are on opposite extremes. I mean I graduated with college honors and well he doesn't know what I mean when I talk because he doesn't understand what the words mean. I am not trying to sound mean about it, it is just difficult to be with someone when they have to ask you every sentence what everything means. I don't know maybe I am just starting ot find all the negatives again. I really do like him and well I really do see positives too. I really do, and I don't know if I would be able to break his heart again. I don't know what to do really. I've kind of been with him again, under my own choice now. Ahhhhhhhhh, what to do?