I am so tired of all of this. of me. I am afraid to cancel any appointments I have. And yet, I have the overwhelming need to distance myself because I am ashamed of who I am. This happened at work, I was glad when people left because they saw the needy side of me that I don't want to exist. They saw my dark passenger/shadow, and that made it real. I have to believe that my shadow side is only a myth. I want to disappear. How do I find my way out of this? What should I do?