I've found that psychiatrists are not troubled by my discussions of suicide. In the ER especially, they are unmoved. One told me that it was my choice to commit suicide. He said he hoped i didn't make that choice but it was up to me.


On the other hand, i've found my support group to be quite alarmist. When i said that several days before i had attempted suicide by pills they insisted i go to the ER. They called an ambulance and escorted me thru the building complex. It was silly because i'd been suicidal days before, not then. At the ER they turned me away again. And i got a $50 bill for the ambulance ride.

Anyways, i don't mind because hospitals here are wretched. I've heard it said that when you want to go into the hospital you don't really need it but when you don't want to go into the hospital, that's when you really need it.