this morning I felt awful when I woke up...I wanted valium...but I waited a little...
I had my morning cup of coffee and it really changed my mood for the better...
also I was talking to my wife about the problems we each have...it was good...
I realized that I never was a guy that was going to the very top...I thought I was...
but I was wrong....my breakdowns seemed to happen when I was the most successful..i think I expected too much of myself...I really am a second stringer...
I am not a take charge leader type...

I am happy coming to grips with this insight...it will help me...thanks for listening..