Ok so squeezing into the pigeon holes was a bit silly. And wow a line dance while stretching. Why do I feel embarrassed of myself for having fun? Good clean old fashioned fun. I sing along to a pop song and I'm acting weird. I out grew the place. They were hypocrites. Their idea of fun was putting people down and making jokes at others expense and laughing at others misfortune. I just wanted to go out dancing with friends. And that made ME the juvenile one. No, but people only realise when it's too late most of the time.
When I got ill I felt like my licence to have fun in life had been revoked. I didn't want people to think I was crazy. I am not crazy. I am not and never was insane. But I have been mentally unwell ..for a period of time. That doesn't mean forever ill.