I am not so anxious today but I am feeling so depressed and lost.I want to cry so bad but I am having a hard time getting it out.I miss my husband ,,mom and dad and my grandmother too.It is kind of a gloomy day all I feel like doing is sleeping,I am very tired didnt get much sleep again last night about four hours if that.I think I may try to take a nap this afternoon I wish I had someone to talk to my kids dont understand my illness they just think I am crazy who can I talk to I have no family .My one friend I do have doesnt want me calling her. She wont be working on Fridays anymore starting in OCt and that was my big day with her,she would laugh watch Days, and sometimes movies but she loves Match Game so we watch that for a few laughs. She would stay for 3 hours so now my visits went from 6 hours a week to a measly three .I feel so sick over this,