I thought I was doing ok last week, then its like delayed reaction, today was the day to seek revenge on her. Man I stuck me finger up at her and told her to %#@&#! off and called her the another bad word! then the tears came and I told her this is the last time I sit there belittling myself to which she replied, its not belittling yourself its feeling, pppfttt is that all she can say..I said I reveal myself and expose myself and for what? she replied, you feel its pointless? I said yeah its pointless, and I want you to hurt like I Hurt and then I can sit and watch you wriggle...then it was right near the end and I said it looks like for the moment you are the wicked witch and she siad with that %#@&#! grin she gets, well the moment part sounds positive!.....why do I feel so dam angry? why can't I see the break for what it was? I dont like this rage I %#@&#! hate it!