I still miss my ex-t it will 9 years in Nov for 2 years the pain was unbearable at times. Hugs. I found the only way to help was to find another therapist who i could trust. It took two therapists to go through at the clinic before i found a good therapist. It is hard to find good therapists but worth it if you don't give up. Also good self care is so important. Let yourself grieve, it's a huge loss. Hugs