You hit the nail on the head, Skeezyks. Empty and sorrowful. I've gone through a lot of loss and mourning. Maybe that was what your dream was about and also I think what mine is about too, not being able to connect with my past in an integrated way.

I got an offer to be part of a job evaluation committee to pick from a list of 50 people. They were offering to renumerate me well but I just couldn't face it. I've been out of my line of work for more than 5 years.

Also have lost this website I used to enjoy participating in. I feel like chemotherapy aged me more than 20 years too, on top of the mental illness.

Thank you for sharing your dream. It gave me some insight into mine.