Of course you do not have to apologize for negative posts. This is a place where we can be "anonymous" so we can explore/figure out our true authentic self. Many of us have been raised or told by others in our lives that we must "be" or "feel" a certain way. It is my hope that we can express ourselves at PC without feeling judged (mostly this happens here but not always that's why the moderators here are so important).

I like you and am so glad you are posting. It is good to get negative feelings out somehow but then hopefully we can find positive things to think about too though I know a symptom of depression is the inability to think positively. If you are depressed, it is unhealthy for people to constantly be "down" on you for expressing how you feel (because they want you to pretend to be happy). I hope you can be yourself here as much as possible. Hopefully, that helps us heal.