I wasn't sure where to post this, so I'm posting it here. I feel bad today, and lately I've been thinking more about asking my T if I have BPD or if any notes are in my file suggesting I might have it, etc. However, I can't bring myself to ask him and will not see him again until about 2 more weeks. I want to talk to someone today and am afraid my friend might not feel like talking, plus I don't want to ask hiom if he thinks I have this, even though he's qualified to judge, in a way. He has graduated with a degree in Psychology. Anyway, I've been thinking about seeing the school counselor at the college and just telling them I don't care about my life anymore, I'm not in horrendous pain, but I am hurting, sad, empty, lonely, and losing hope. I just don't care about anything right now- oh, and by the way, I think I might have BPD because I have several of the symptoms- which are blah, blah, and blah- does it sound like it to you? Yet, if I tell the school counselor, it might end up on records, and my T is better about leaving things out if he thinks it is in my best interest. I trust him more. Plus, I don't want him to know I saw someone else, and he would find out, right? I'm not sure I want BPD or even "possible BPD" on my file if it isn't already there. What should I do?