I don't want to go back to once a week. Are you going to make me go back to once a week, or were you just assuming I wouldn't have time to see you twice a week once I'm back in lab? I know it's stupid, and you probably only meant for it to be short term when things were bad, but I don't feel ready to give up having two days and if you take that away I'd feel rejected and abandoned and pathetic and guilty for wanting things I can't have.

You know I can't ask for the things I want/need. Six months ago I would have just dealt with this kind of thing by hurting myself to show that I wasn't ready and still needed more help. I'm trying to do things differently, but what if I ask and you tell me no?