Does anyone else feel they are just surviving and not really living life ... no outlets ... no distractions ... just me and my thoughts ... just waiting for it all to end ... I so feel I should just pull myself up " by my bootstraps ", as they say ... but I can't ... no one gives me a responsibility break or any special treatment ... so I have no benifit from being so down ... I am just so tired and really don't give a da** anymore ... everything seems to be so hard now ... sorry if I have bumbed anyone out ... what do they say ... it is always darkest before the dawn ... maybe so ... but the night has been so long ... peace my friends ... Tigger .